Hello, I Love You!
(Photography by Freddy Camargo)
I am aware of my sensuality and of how I affect men that
come into my space. It has always been
that way even when I was a little girl.
It has never been intentional – just something that is. I have my own beauty, but I would not dare to
say I am gorgeous. I think I am pretty
and beautiful, and I do not need anyone to validate how I feel about
myself.
When I love, I love without conditions. I love wholly and completely. I give it my all. It has been said that the man who is lucky
enough to have my love is a lucky man indeed.
I give it my all and hold nothing back.
When I give you my heart, it is without strings. You have my heart in full. I hold nothing back from you. If you are lucky enough to enter my world,
gain my trust, capture my heart, and earn my submission, count yourself in the
presence of a rarity. I do not give
freely, but once I do, treasure it. I am
a fine gem, precious and fragile, yet with a strength that is incomparable to
any others.
I move through this world on my own terms. I may appear to be soft and scared sometimes,
and I am, but on the whole? I am a
strong, independent woman who demands to be respected, cared for, and loved
completely. If I give control over, it
is with trust. Once that trust is betrayed, or once respect is lacking, I will
come out like a hellcat. More than one
man has felt my wrath at being disrespected and undervalued.
Do not dare to say you love me and prove differently. Be careful, because if pushed? I will become
a cornered she-wolf that is not afraid to tear and rip apart he who dares to
hurt me.
I have been hurt many times.
Honest and openness spares the poor heart that hurts me. I forgive easily and often, and with
forgiveness comes gentleness. But push
me one too many times, and you will see the extent of my defense of my heart. If I have given my heart to you, and you
trivialize what I have given, you will remember these words when my wrath
visits you in the darkness.
I do not suffer fools.
Do not be foolish enough to think you can play with my emotions and
feelings. Because if you dare try,
believing that I am naïve and stupid, I will discover the truth. And when that is discovered, you will receive
10 times the wrath of my heart break.
You will curl in a dark corner quaking with what you see there, because
you will be forced to see the ugliness of your own soul.
So, if you think that you can capture my heart with your
bragging ways and your lies of love-words, you are very wrong. I see the heart and soul of those that try to
play me, and once seen? I have my own
fun until I tire of the game. And you? You
are left with nothing but your own visions of your ugly soul.
Ah, but when I love and see the beauty of the intent of your
heart and soul and how you love me completely and wholly, I give you my all
with all of the love, protection, care, and softness I possess. Give me your heart without reservations and
receive my heart in return, pure and gentle.
With that, I will go to the edge of the universe and back for you and
with you, even when troubled waters show up.
I understand that we are all human and make mistakes, and sometimes, we
say words of anger and of our own pain.
But when you have given me your honest heart and love, I see beyond the
anger and pain. When you have my honest
heart and love, you have it without strings or conditions.
So, when you say, “I love you,” make sure you mean what you
say. Make sure you feel what you
say. If during the course of our togetherness,
those feelings change, be honest and speak your truth. I accept honesty and understand humanness. We
will walk away from each other, heads held high knowing that what we had was
sacred and good. We will walk away
intact without recriminations, without pain, and with purity of intention.
Then? We take the best and leave the worst.
