Saturday, March 14, 2015

Happy Birthday, Momma

Mothers and daughters have their moments. Me and my mother certainly had ours.

We were estranged for several years, but were able to talk about our past and heal. She finally became the Momma I longed for, and we were able to become friends - Mother and Daughter. I am so grateful.

But cancer stole her away from me. I miss her each day. I miss the relationship we carved out of the pain of our past.

A few weeks before she died, she told me her story - one that I did not know. She showed me documents of her life - wanting me to understand her. I listened and saw the incredible woman she was. She overcame a type of domestic abuse that would have destroyed most women.

And now,  I understand so much more. Since she passed,  each year on her birthday, I read her words and reflect on her life. Each year, I understand so much more. 

Thursday, March 5, 2015

White Lab Coat

I see your mouth moving,
White lab coat proving
The severity of your words,
Yet my mind says, "absurd!"
Another life change drastic,
Thoughts come to me sarcastic.
I must have spoken aloud,
Your head shakes, silence so loud.
Droning changes to be made,
To fail, a death sentence paid.
Where do I turn for solace and strength?
How do I navigate waters this length?
Don't want to hear anecdotes and tales,
Not while I'm in my own private hell.

CWylde ⓒ 03/ 04/ 15